October 2009
Copyright 2009
With permissoin from Jonathan and Anael
10/17/09
From: Anael Harpaz [mailto:anaelcfp@gmail.com]
Sent: Monday, October 19, 2009 4:34 PM
To: jonstein@bellsouth.net
Subject: I feel with you Jonathan- KDHS
Hi Jonathan ? don?t know if you remember me ? Heather Miodownik??I went into the KDHS ?website? today ? have not been there for a while and read what you wrote about Jannie and Sandler??.I am so proud of you for sharing this. I hope it brings you some healing ?.I know for myself ..I spent days and days trying to decide how much of myself do I open up in front of all of you who were in my life when horrible things were happening to me??after long deliberation and encouagement from Ashley and Lindsey ?.I decided to share my authentic self??
I cannot begin to tell you how healing and liberating it is for me??.I hope and pray that this will give you some peace of mind and hopefully some peace in your body too?..I know that for me, forgiving those that hurt me so badly has also helped liberated me??I am into alternative healing methods and one of the modalities that really helped me to forgive my dad was something called ?The Journey ? also a method called EFT?..if you want more information ? please let me know ? I would be happy to help and support in anyway I can.
Sending much love and prayers for your wellbeing??.Heather (Anael)
10/20/09
Anael:
Thank you so much for your warm and kind letter. Of course I remember Heather Miodownik ? she was at least to me one very hot chick! I was always incredibly shy at school and I don?t think I ever had enough courage to even speak to you. I was going through some of my old pictures from the Ulpan ?67 and I came across the enclosed picture and I believe you are in the green shirt.
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93394p L to right ? ? ? Heather Mio Hilton Rosenthal Debbie Morgenstern Courtesy Jonathan Stein |
Although I wrote those 3 short pieces and asked Ashley to put them on the site, I never myself felt that I was threatened and I myself never felt that I needed to go through a healing process. These events truly did not affect in any way my sense of worth or have any effect on the development of my personal self. I was just giving tidbits of information to feed the site; there is very little ugliness with regard to KDHS for the most part from the folks feeding into the site. I just hope I am not going to be regarded as a spoilsport. On the other hand, and speaking only for myself, I have no desire now or ever to forgive Mr Gert Jansen or Mr Sandler for their abusive behavior. I say this because I, myself, feel no need to be liberated.
On the other hand, I have been truly impressed with what you, Anael, have added to the site. Your prose and your poetry has totally taken my breath away. Kol Ha?kavod lach for having written so eloquently about such horrific experiences. As far as the teacher who told you to go make mudpies ? she would roll over in her grave f she could read what you have written. You have done a great job in Israel and I am sure, for the most part that it is thankless. I, myself, thank you from the bottom of my heart for what you appear to be devoting your life , that is for the peace of Israel. I think there is no more noble pursuit that anyone could attempt.
Am Yisroel Chai
10/20/09
HI Jonathan ? I apologise for thinking that what you shared affected you and your self esteem ? it was my stuff that I was seeing through your story ? I suffered so badly of low self esteem and self hatred becuase of the abuse I encountered that I imagined that what happened to you affected you in the same way ? I guess there is a big differance between one?s father and a stupid teacher?..so please forgive me for assuming that you had a similar experience??
Thank you for what you have to say about what I am doing in my life ? I cannot stand the thought of my grandchildren having the saqme life as my children have had ? another generation and another ? I often feel like this is a drop in the ocean but it is better than sitting at home an d complaining so I carry on enev when all around me the reality looks like there is no hope ? these girls inspire me so much and keep me going??. I am sure there are many teachers who cannot believe what had become of me?I am so happy that despite them ? I am doing good in this world?? I wish you strength on your painful journey and once again ? sorry for assuming things that are in actual fact jsut my own stuff?so happy you need no liberation ? I worked real hard to liberate myself ? mainly from self loathing?forgiving my dad and forgiving myself for the lessons I have chosen on my path?.. sending blessings and healing for your aching body??.Anael