Heather Miodownik

Copyright 2009

Written March 2002

The pain so deep,

I think I can weep,

from now until forever.

As I open my eyes,

revealing cries

of childhood in Africa.

Theirs and mine!

I had no idea.

It was not clear.

Protecting myself

with so much wealth?

Sure that all was well,

not noticing that we were living in hell!

House, garden, pool and tennis court,

all the luxuries that could be bought.

And we were taught,

that there are those with black skin

born in order for us to win.

It has all surfaced now!

How could we  have lived like this?

People in bliss ?

Not knowing that within

the skin

is the Light of God,

even if it is dark.

Where was the light

of the White

who could deceive himself

so as not to see the truth?

The memory has surfaced

of me on her back.

No name -no identity!

She sang to me,

caressed me.

I bet she even blessed me.

Her breast full of yearning

for her own.

As my own mother,

 let her, mother me.

I can smell the sweet scent.

Remember the soft silk

chocolate colored skin

of the woman

who saved me

 from abandonment,

abandoning her own

so white women could

live in luxury.

She is the one that

 caressed me,

fed me,

clothed me,

bathed me,

and saved me?.

and I was taught

that she was naught

because of her skin.

Did no one see her heart?

Mine breaks

as the truth makes

me look back at my roots

in Africa.