My heart beats loud

like a drum in my chest.

With each beat

I meet

the pain.

And then ?

on the morning of  May ?

what did I hear then?

Not the sound of a galloping horse!

Weak beats, slow beats, tired beats.

Each beat  ? far apart

and my heart broke in two.

I cried.

She tried

with her last bit of strength

to hold on

before surrendering.

I did not surrender,

even though I was tempted

by the Angel of Death.

I held.

I gripped.

I fought.

To build.

To strengthen.

To grow and eventually

to blossom.

Now I can carry on.

After the pain is out.

About to start

from scratch,

in order to hatch

the new me

 Awakening to reality!