(now Anael Harpaz)
Copyright 2009
from an email
?Hi Ash ? I am so moved by what I am reading from everyone??.I have sat down a few times to write and I feel pulled to share authentically ? as did Stephen and others ? who I am today and my path of healing and peace ? it is written in peotry and prose ? something that I want to publsih eventually ? it is not easy for me as there are things in there that will shock you all ? and together with this I know I must share ? so maybe this is my big test ? to share with those who know me- I shake as I write this ? I have only put in the ?peace? stuff ? ? what is here is personal enough for you all to know the truth and how this lead me to peace making?.having to make peace with myself and my childhood ?it is quite long ? maybe too long so I am wondering if I should send it or not??I just realise it is 10 to five in the morning?.I am still in Santa Fe??I have sat on this all night??.I shall sleep for a while and wait to hear your response?..I was so moved to hear how you suported Stephen and so understand him?.depression was my middle name for a long time??.please God that is over??.?
To the Group
I cannot begin to tell you how touched I am by this reconnection with all of you?.I have been reading, remembering, smiling, laughing, getting teary and sometimes angry(thinking how dishonored we were ? or I at least) but mostly just so pleased that this is happening?It feels warm and comforting and it is so great to see who we are in the world today ? how we got there ? the joys and pains of life!
