Amy
Copyright 2009
Then God decided it is time to wake up and I lost my fourth child, my baby Amy, in 1986. I was very close to killing myself when I had my first mystical vision ? I was on the 16th floor of a fancy hotel in Tel- Aviv. One leg over the rail when I saw a picture in the sky?it was of my three beautiful copper haired children ? they were looking down at me and crying. I woke up with a jolt and took my leg back. I needed more jolting so a year later, my second son, became paralyzed after being infected with mumps. Thank goodness today he is healthy. And so started my path to awakening?..my spiritual journey to heal myself, to make peace with myself and my past, and a few years later to start making peace with my cultural conditioning.
Awakening to Reality
Written Nov 1991
My heart beats loud
like a drum in my chest.
With each beat
I meet
the pain.
And then ?
on the morning of May ?
what did I hear then?
Not the sound of a galloping horse!
Weak beats, slow beats, tired beats.
Each beat ? far apart
and my heart broke in two.
I cried.
She tried
with her last bit of strength
to hold on
before surrendering.
I did not surrender,
even though I was tempted
by the Angel of Death.
I held.
I gripped.
I fought.
To build.
To strengthen.
To grow and eventually
to blossom.
Now I can carry on.
After the pain is out.
About to start
from scratch,
in order to hatch
the new me
Awakening to reality!