Copyright 2009
Well ? where do I even start??at school- I HATED IT! Not hated being there with all you guys ? just hated school ? Studies were not for me?..I remember my mom refusing to come to The Office again saying that she did nothing wrong and was sick and tired of being called to school all the time?- I got it back with my own son ? the amount of lines I had to write and Psalms I had to learn off by heart!!! What a waste of time and energy ? I am having a flashback of Sahara Jameson ? in form 4 I think ? we would always chat in class and I always got caught ? she could talk and hear the teacher at the same time?.not me?!!!
Do you all know that in form 4 I had private maths lessons twice a week and landed up getting 7% at the end of the year- My mom then decided I better learn typing so at least I could become a secretary ? it has served me well now with the computers ? I remember Dr Thomas screaming at me ?Miiii odovnik ? you acan go outaside and make a mudpies??that is all you are good for!? The Afrikaans teacher- can? t remember her name but can see her face as if she were right here on the screen ? ? Miodownik ? are you in our are you out?? I was out every day ? It was a political decision! I called Zelton the the day before matric to come tell me something of what we had learned that year..of course it did not help?.but alas ? there was some substance in my brain because after having been on the ulpan and haven gotten the bug of wanting to go and live in Israel ? I got A in Hebrew ? so when I wanted to ? I could do it?.. I proved that too when I studied in Israel to be a Kindergarden teacher and got amazing grades even though it was in Hebrew??I still hear that voice or the many voices ? ?you will never achieve your potential???written on every report card??? Still can?t let go of never feeling good enough no matter how great I do?I guess it is time to let that go!!!!
I have many warm memories ? Ashley, Eric, Choni, Elaine Myers, Denise Orelowitz, Stephan, Jeff ? having a flash back of someone giving you some diarrhea causing sandwich or chocolate?..George?..listening to Simon and Garfunkel on Ashleys lawn ? ?..I think it was Eric who came to tell me one day that you guys had smoked pot ? that I should try ? you won?t believe it but it took me years to try ? did once in Hawaii and promised never to do that again?..such a goodie goodie ? how stupid ? actually I think if I would have carried on I would probably have been addicted that is why I so adamantly kept away from it?.don?t worry ? much later on in life I took a mushroom and it changed my life and my path!!!!
Lots of names and faces are coming to me ? Trevis, Hilton, Sandra, Cheryl, Hadassah, Hazel, Debbie, Felicity, Ruthie, Heather, ?..it can go on and on??.with each name a memory pops up?..
I am being flooded with memories ? but maybe I will let that go and share where life has taken me?..
The ulpan in 67 was a turning point ? my dad was born in Palestine and left in 29 during the riots ? the message I always got is that we are going ?home? . I never felt SA to be home ? even though now I must say that when I hear a SA accent I melt?..anyway after ulpan I drove my parent s mad ? all I wanted to do was go back ? home? and become a soldier and kill all the Arabs?. By the way I was always angry that my dad never allowed me to join Habonim ? had to go the The Reform Movement ? anyway they insisted I finish school and in March of 69 we all left ? I went to Kibbutz Yizrael ? at long last I was with Habonim people??did not learn much Hebrew but did meet a great guy from New Zealand and was madly in love ? we were together for a long while but when we got serious my mom convinced me that ?he will never be able to support you? and took me back to SA to remind me how one should live ? not like on the kibbutz ? and I believed her and let go of the relationship?.. he left Israel and became a millionaire ? to prove to my mom that she was wrong ? meantime we both married other people who we have both since divorced?..! No ? it won?t work now!!!!